New sheets. This year I am going to sleep more.
Sunday, January 1, 2012
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
the cleanse continues
stats
210.6 (!)
102
cleaned house for hours yesterday, literally. i do feel better now, although there are about five micro-projects in each room that i skipped so that i could clean each room. i will get to those this week.
i have already emailed my supervisor that i am sick and not coming in today. doctor today will be dr. v, or more likely jennifer, the PA, which is fine. i like her. i need to find out about the headache/ear ache/sore throat/cough that has been plaguing me for weeks. i think i need antibiotics, it feels like maybe a sinus infection/bronchitis? gross. also need to get some prescriptions written in preparation for losing my "good" insurance.
second phone call today, after the doctor's office, is to the insurance broker. well, actually, the third, cause I also need to call dr. mathews's office and make an appointment for this week to follow up. need to make sure all is well, since i am actually spotting as of saturday. nothing heavy, but i wasn't spotting after the procedure day. i hope they can do the other side. and before, again, i lose my "good" insurance.
ok enough of that. i am going to call dr. vasquez, dr. mathews, and the insurance broker, in that order.
around going to the doctor today to take care of this lingering ick, i am going to do a liquid cleanse, that is, i am going to push fluids to try and wash out the germs, as well as the FOUR POUNDS i gained yesterday. i did eat too much chinese food but seriously? i am going to eat today as well as the liquid, but only to keep my blood sugar normal. gonna make some dal, too, to rest the digestion. so i will just eat that.
vincent is going to geneva's today, i kind of feel selfish for taking him when i am not going to work but i need to go to the doctor, and i need to march through these micro-projects and he really misses ocean. so, he is going to go today, thursday, and maybe even friday if i need to finish things and get to all the doctor's appointments.
my micro-project for today is to organize the pantries and the fridge/freezer. it looks like dr. seuss decorated the insides of my kitchen cabinets and it is ridiculous!
210.6 (!)
102
cleaned house for hours yesterday, literally. i do feel better now, although there are about five micro-projects in each room that i skipped so that i could clean each room. i will get to those this week.
i have already emailed my supervisor that i am sick and not coming in today. doctor today will be dr. v, or more likely jennifer, the PA, which is fine. i like her. i need to find out about the headache/ear ache/sore throat/cough that has been plaguing me for weeks. i think i need antibiotics, it feels like maybe a sinus infection/bronchitis? gross. also need to get some prescriptions written in preparation for losing my "good" insurance.
second phone call today, after the doctor's office, is to the insurance broker. well, actually, the third, cause I also need to call dr. mathews's office and make an appointment for this week to follow up. need to make sure all is well, since i am actually spotting as of saturday. nothing heavy, but i wasn't spotting after the procedure day. i hope they can do the other side. and before, again, i lose my "good" insurance.
ok enough of that. i am going to call dr. vasquez, dr. mathews, and the insurance broker, in that order.
around going to the doctor today to take care of this lingering ick, i am going to do a liquid cleanse, that is, i am going to push fluids to try and wash out the germs, as well as the FOUR POUNDS i gained yesterday. i did eat too much chinese food but seriously? i am going to eat today as well as the liquid, but only to keep my blood sugar normal. gonna make some dal, too, to rest the digestion. so i will just eat that.
vincent is going to geneva's today, i kind of feel selfish for taking him when i am not going to work but i need to go to the doctor, and i need to march through these micro-projects and he really misses ocean. so, he is going to go today, thursday, and maybe even friday if i need to finish things and get to all the doctor's appointments.
my micro-project for today is to organize the pantries and the fridge/freezer. it looks like dr. seuss decorated the insides of my kitchen cabinets and it is ridiculous!
Monday, July 5, 2010
new
stats:
206.6
106
it is about quarter after nine and i am finishing my salty lassi and sipping my coffee, waiting for josh to wake up so that we can clean up this mess of a house. vincent slept over at nonna and papa's last night for this purpose...sad, we couldn't even take advantage of being alone in the house since it hasn't been two weeks yet since i was spayed, etc. but i am probably going to have to rouse him with the smell of cooking food, since he doesn't drink the coffee that smells so good.
i have let so much stress build up my life that i haven't been able to do anything. i have been paralyzed by my thoughts and feelings for months now, but thanks to four or five therapy sessions, i have sorted it out enough to start acting on it, and it already feels better.
the first step is to get this house cleaned up. i have neglected it for weeks, literally, and there is stuff and clutter piled everywhere. i have always cleaned to deal with stress, it has always been calming to me, creating an outer clarity and order has almost always been able to bring me back to an inner order, but even that has failed me lately. so i am going to get on that today with josh's help.
then, i am taking the week off sick. i am sick, there is no ethical or professional conflict. i am acutely sick with a horrible chest cold, i am chronically sick with barely controlled diabetes. i am mentally sick, unable to sleep or concentrate, crying too easily and struggling with a nearly constant feeling of dread. so, i am going to call in sick tomorrow, and wednesday, and thursday. the essential thing is that i am making a conscious decision not to go to work this week because i am sick, i need to rest, i need to get to a couple of doctor's appointments, and i need to allow myself the time and space to do this. my entire life, i have been the type of person to drag myself to work no matter how i "feel"; if i am not bleeding out of my eyeballs, i go to work. the consequences of having done this for the past 11 months at my current job, the months in which i have been the only licensed counselor working in the outpatient program, are multiple. and i am going to rest and take care of myself next week.
then i am going to resign. but i will talk more about that later.
206.6
106
it is about quarter after nine and i am finishing my salty lassi and sipping my coffee, waiting for josh to wake up so that we can clean up this mess of a house. vincent slept over at nonna and papa's last night for this purpose...sad, we couldn't even take advantage of being alone in the house since it hasn't been two weeks yet since i was spayed, etc. but i am probably going to have to rouse him with the smell of cooking food, since he doesn't drink the coffee that smells so good.
i have let so much stress build up my life that i haven't been able to do anything. i have been paralyzed by my thoughts and feelings for months now, but thanks to four or five therapy sessions, i have sorted it out enough to start acting on it, and it already feels better.
the first step is to get this house cleaned up. i have neglected it for weeks, literally, and there is stuff and clutter piled everywhere. i have always cleaned to deal with stress, it has always been calming to me, creating an outer clarity and order has almost always been able to bring me back to an inner order, but even that has failed me lately. so i am going to get on that today with josh's help.
then, i am taking the week off sick. i am sick, there is no ethical or professional conflict. i am acutely sick with a horrible chest cold, i am chronically sick with barely controlled diabetes. i am mentally sick, unable to sleep or concentrate, crying too easily and struggling with a nearly constant feeling of dread. so, i am going to call in sick tomorrow, and wednesday, and thursday. the essential thing is that i am making a conscious decision not to go to work this week because i am sick, i need to rest, i need to get to a couple of doctor's appointments, and i need to allow myself the time and space to do this. my entire life, i have been the type of person to drag myself to work no matter how i "feel"; if i am not bleeding out of my eyeballs, i go to work. the consequences of having done this for the past 11 months at my current job, the months in which i have been the only licensed counselor working in the outpatient program, are multiple. and i am going to rest and take care of myself next week.
then i am going to resign. but i will talk more about that later.
Thursday, April 8, 2010
hello!
haven't posted in quite a while, i have been really stressed out and busy and having health issues and hating my job and maybe trying to get a mortgage loan and on and on and on. i am posting this here to remind me to update soon. must. upload. pictures. now, off to clean the bathroom, why the fuck did i get up so early?
Monday, January 18, 2010
my donation to haiti, and some food that is not indian, and a stress list.
well, after texting 10 dollars to yele on the prompting of the president of the agency that i work for and subsequently finding out that a) text donations may take up to 90 days to get to where they were intended to go and that, more disturbing, b) yele is under investigation for fraud, i made a donation to doctors without borders, and then donated a cooking lesson to a raffle that a cool mom that i know is putting together. a lesson on how to make...wait for it...indian food! i know how to make a lot of things, but i guess that indian food is something that needs to be demystified for people, so i hope it raises a little bit of cash. they are moving bodies in port au prince from the street to mass graves using bulldozers. for real.
so, today i also made a salad-type thing that is really good when you are feeling lazy and/or poor. it is basically a chicken salad, here are the ingredients:
2-3 c chopped, cooked chicken. today i poached b/s breasts, but you can use anything, especially left over roasted chicken. mmmmm.
1 c chopped celery
3-4 little red skin potatoes
5 hard boiled eggs
1/4 cup mayo
1/4 cup sour cream
2 tbs grey poupon mustard, or whatever kind you like
8 baby dill pickles, i love best maid, with the red chilis in the jar
garlic salt, celery salt, pepper, dried dill to taste.
there is no photo tutorial for this, since you chop every thing up and toss it with the wet ingredients. really. it is chicken salad, i just like to add the potato and egg and pickles for protein and flavor. this stuff is also really good blitzed in the food processor, like a spread. mmmm.
look good? it is.
anyway, in other scintillating news, i have decided i need to start on a stress list, that is a list of things that are currently stressing me out and contributing to, if not causing, my insomnia. here is a start:
1. my car. the SRS light, the maintenance light, the cigarette lighter doesn't work, and the locks are all messed up. get this hoopty to the honda dealer, for the love of fuck.
2. my warrant. yes, i forgot to pay a stop sign ticket i got ON MY BIRTHDAY, thanks, oinker. and now i have a warrant. need to get rid of that.
3. i need to make an appointment with the FM doctor my friend kat recommended.
4. i need to see my PCP for medication side effect issues.
5. i need to START the work on my teeth, even though it is going to be really expensive and take a long time.
ok. for today, i am going to get my nails done, my eyebrows waxed, and possibly even a pedicure. i haven't decided on that last bit yet.
so, today i also made a salad-type thing that is really good when you are feeling lazy and/or poor. it is basically a chicken salad, here are the ingredients:
2-3 c chopped, cooked chicken. today i poached b/s breasts, but you can use anything, especially left over roasted chicken. mmmmm.
1 c chopped celery
3-4 little red skin potatoes
5 hard boiled eggs
1/4 cup mayo
1/4 cup sour cream
2 tbs grey poupon mustard, or whatever kind you like
8 baby dill pickles, i love best maid, with the red chilis in the jar
garlic salt, celery salt, pepper, dried dill to taste.
there is no photo tutorial for this, since you chop every thing up and toss it with the wet ingredients. really. it is chicken salad, i just like to add the potato and egg and pickles for protein and flavor. this stuff is also really good blitzed in the food processor, like a spread. mmmm.
look good? it is.
1. my car. the SRS light, the maintenance light, the cigarette lighter doesn't work, and the locks are all messed up. get this hoopty to the honda dealer, for the love of fuck.
2. my warrant. yes, i forgot to pay a stop sign ticket i got ON MY BIRTHDAY, thanks, oinker. and now i have a warrant. need to get rid of that.
3. i need to make an appointment with the FM doctor my friend kat recommended.
4. i need to see my PCP for medication side effect issues.
5. i need to START the work on my teeth, even though it is going to be really expensive and take a long time.
ok. for today, i am going to get my nails done, my eyebrows waxed, and possibly even a pedicure. i haven't decided on that last bit yet.
Sunday, January 17, 2010
comfort food, more sickness, can i get some sleep PLEASE?!?
first, following the last post, the curry chicken recipe.
ingredients:
4 tbs oil, i use peanut
4 cloves
6 green cardamom pods
2 inch cinnamon stick
3 star anise
8 curry leaves
1 large onion, chopped
2 inches ginger, grated
4 garlic cloves, crushed...or, like in the blue dish, puree from a jar.
4 tbs mild curry paste (see last post)
1 tsp ground turmeric...in green dish
3.5 lbs chicken, i use boneless, skinless thighs. if you don't eat meat, i would recommend a sturdy protein substitute, like chick peas
14 oz can chopped tomatoes
1/2 c coconut milk or cream. i like milk...make sure you don't buy the latino coconut crema, it is heavily sweetened.i love imperial dragon brand.
1/2 tsp jaggery, grated...in the red dish, above. you can use sugar.
2 c chopped cilantro
put the oil in a heavy bottomed pot and heat it. add the spices from dish #1 above...
fry till aromatic and popping a bit. mmmm smell that curry leaf.
add the chopped onion, the ginger and garlic, and brown. Then, add your curry paste, hopefully the home made kind...also add the turmeric right now. looks like so---->
add the chicken after a few minutes, and seal it. then cover the pot till the chicken is mostly cooked, about 10 minutes.
when your mix looks like this, uncover and let it simmer for a few minutes. then, add the canned tomatoes and coconut milk. stir it well, turn down the heat, and simmer it till it thickens.
you can add cashews or almonds, here, too, especially if you are making this without meat. but i add cashews or almonds here sometimes. also, if it is too wet, you can grind up the nuts and add them as a thickener. but cashew sauce chicken is a whole separate recipe!!
anyway, at this point, stir in your jaggery or sugar, some sea salt, and then fold in the cilantro.
so vincent has a throat infection, not strep, and one red ear. after violently, suddenly, and uh, thoroughly barfing friday night, i became convinced of this and took him to the doc in the box on sunday morning, he is now on keflex.
ingredients:4 tbs oil, i use peanut
4 cloves
6 green cardamom pods
2 inch cinnamon stick
3 star anise
8 curry leaves
1 large onion, chopped
4 garlic cloves, crushed...or, like in the blue dish, puree from a jar.
4 tbs mild curry paste (see last post)
1 tsp ground turmeric...in green dish
3.5 lbs chicken, i use boneless, skinless thighs. if you don't eat meat, i would recommend a sturdy protein substitute, like chick peas
14 oz can chopped tomatoes
1/2 c coconut milk or cream. i like milk...make sure you don't buy the latino coconut crema, it is heavily sweetened.i love imperial dragon brand. 1/2 tsp jaggery, grated...in the red dish, above. you can use sugar.
2 c chopped cilantro
add the chicken after a few minutes, and seal it. then cover the pot till the chicken is mostly cooked, about 10 minutes.
you can add cashews or almonds, here, too, especially if you are making this without meat. but i add cashews or almonds here sometimes. also, if it is too wet, you can grind up the nuts and add them as a thickener. but cashew sauce chicken is a whole separate recipe!!
anyway, at this point, stir in your jaggery or sugar, some sea salt, and then fold in the cilantro.
delish.
so vincent has a throat infection, not strep, and one red ear. after violently, suddenly, and uh, thoroughly barfing friday night, i became convinced of this and took him to the doc in the box on sunday morning, he is now on keflex.
i just plain can't sleep through the night. i may have to go back to taking rozerem, cause this is ridiculous. i am also making an appointment with a friend's doctor who specializes in fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue, etc, and of course, doesn't take insurance. i don't care anymore, i am going. wish me luck.
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