jennifer today at 3:45
dr. mathews friday at 3:15
moving on...
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
the cleanse continues
stats
210.6 (!)
102
cleaned house for hours yesterday, literally. i do feel better now, although there are about five micro-projects in each room that i skipped so that i could clean each room. i will get to those this week.
i have already emailed my supervisor that i am sick and not coming in today. doctor today will be dr. v, or more likely jennifer, the PA, which is fine. i like her. i need to find out about the headache/ear ache/sore throat/cough that has been plaguing me for weeks. i think i need antibiotics, it feels like maybe a sinus infection/bronchitis? gross. also need to get some prescriptions written in preparation for losing my "good" insurance.
second phone call today, after the doctor's office, is to the insurance broker. well, actually, the third, cause I also need to call dr. mathews's office and make an appointment for this week to follow up. need to make sure all is well, since i am actually spotting as of saturday. nothing heavy, but i wasn't spotting after the procedure day. i hope they can do the other side. and before, again, i lose my "good" insurance.
ok enough of that. i am going to call dr. vasquez, dr. mathews, and the insurance broker, in that order.
around going to the doctor today to take care of this lingering ick, i am going to do a liquid cleanse, that is, i am going to push fluids to try and wash out the germs, as well as the FOUR POUNDS i gained yesterday. i did eat too much chinese food but seriously? i am going to eat today as well as the liquid, but only to keep my blood sugar normal. gonna make some dal, too, to rest the digestion. so i will just eat that.
vincent is going to geneva's today, i kind of feel selfish for taking him when i am not going to work but i need to go to the doctor, and i need to march through these micro-projects and he really misses ocean. so, he is going to go today, thursday, and maybe even friday if i need to finish things and get to all the doctor's appointments.
my micro-project for today is to organize the pantries and the fridge/freezer. it looks like dr. seuss decorated the insides of my kitchen cabinets and it is ridiculous!
210.6 (!)
102
cleaned house for hours yesterday, literally. i do feel better now, although there are about five micro-projects in each room that i skipped so that i could clean each room. i will get to those this week.
i have already emailed my supervisor that i am sick and not coming in today. doctor today will be dr. v, or more likely jennifer, the PA, which is fine. i like her. i need to find out about the headache/ear ache/sore throat/cough that has been plaguing me for weeks. i think i need antibiotics, it feels like maybe a sinus infection/bronchitis? gross. also need to get some prescriptions written in preparation for losing my "good" insurance.
second phone call today, after the doctor's office, is to the insurance broker. well, actually, the third, cause I also need to call dr. mathews's office and make an appointment for this week to follow up. need to make sure all is well, since i am actually spotting as of saturday. nothing heavy, but i wasn't spotting after the procedure day. i hope they can do the other side. and before, again, i lose my "good" insurance.
ok enough of that. i am going to call dr. vasquez, dr. mathews, and the insurance broker, in that order.
around going to the doctor today to take care of this lingering ick, i am going to do a liquid cleanse, that is, i am going to push fluids to try and wash out the germs, as well as the FOUR POUNDS i gained yesterday. i did eat too much chinese food but seriously? i am going to eat today as well as the liquid, but only to keep my blood sugar normal. gonna make some dal, too, to rest the digestion. so i will just eat that.
vincent is going to geneva's today, i kind of feel selfish for taking him when i am not going to work but i need to go to the doctor, and i need to march through these micro-projects and he really misses ocean. so, he is going to go today, thursday, and maybe even friday if i need to finish things and get to all the doctor's appointments.
my micro-project for today is to organize the pantries and the fridge/freezer. it looks like dr. seuss decorated the insides of my kitchen cabinets and it is ridiculous!
Monday, July 5, 2010
new
stats:
206.6
106
it is about quarter after nine and i am finishing my salty lassi and sipping my coffee, waiting for josh to wake up so that we can clean up this mess of a house. vincent slept over at nonna and papa's last night for this purpose...sad, we couldn't even take advantage of being alone in the house since it hasn't been two weeks yet since i was spayed, etc. but i am probably going to have to rouse him with the smell of cooking food, since he doesn't drink the coffee that smells so good.
i have let so much stress build up my life that i haven't been able to do anything. i have been paralyzed by my thoughts and feelings for months now, but thanks to four or five therapy sessions, i have sorted it out enough to start acting on it, and it already feels better.
the first step is to get this house cleaned up. i have neglected it for weeks, literally, and there is stuff and clutter piled everywhere. i have always cleaned to deal with stress, it has always been calming to me, creating an outer clarity and order has almost always been able to bring me back to an inner order, but even that has failed me lately. so i am going to get on that today with josh's help.
then, i am taking the week off sick. i am sick, there is no ethical or professional conflict. i am acutely sick with a horrible chest cold, i am chronically sick with barely controlled diabetes. i am mentally sick, unable to sleep or concentrate, crying too easily and struggling with a nearly constant feeling of dread. so, i am going to call in sick tomorrow, and wednesday, and thursday. the essential thing is that i am making a conscious decision not to go to work this week because i am sick, i need to rest, i need to get to a couple of doctor's appointments, and i need to allow myself the time and space to do this. my entire life, i have been the type of person to drag myself to work no matter how i "feel"; if i am not bleeding out of my eyeballs, i go to work. the consequences of having done this for the past 11 months at my current job, the months in which i have been the only licensed counselor working in the outpatient program, are multiple. and i am going to rest and take care of myself next week.
then i am going to resign. but i will talk more about that later.
206.6
106
it is about quarter after nine and i am finishing my salty lassi and sipping my coffee, waiting for josh to wake up so that we can clean up this mess of a house. vincent slept over at nonna and papa's last night for this purpose...sad, we couldn't even take advantage of being alone in the house since it hasn't been two weeks yet since i was spayed, etc. but i am probably going to have to rouse him with the smell of cooking food, since he doesn't drink the coffee that smells so good.
i have let so much stress build up my life that i haven't been able to do anything. i have been paralyzed by my thoughts and feelings for months now, but thanks to four or five therapy sessions, i have sorted it out enough to start acting on it, and it already feels better.
the first step is to get this house cleaned up. i have neglected it for weeks, literally, and there is stuff and clutter piled everywhere. i have always cleaned to deal with stress, it has always been calming to me, creating an outer clarity and order has almost always been able to bring me back to an inner order, but even that has failed me lately. so i am going to get on that today with josh's help.
then, i am taking the week off sick. i am sick, there is no ethical or professional conflict. i am acutely sick with a horrible chest cold, i am chronically sick with barely controlled diabetes. i am mentally sick, unable to sleep or concentrate, crying too easily and struggling with a nearly constant feeling of dread. so, i am going to call in sick tomorrow, and wednesday, and thursday. the essential thing is that i am making a conscious decision not to go to work this week because i am sick, i need to rest, i need to get to a couple of doctor's appointments, and i need to allow myself the time and space to do this. my entire life, i have been the type of person to drag myself to work no matter how i "feel"; if i am not bleeding out of my eyeballs, i go to work. the consequences of having done this for the past 11 months at my current job, the months in which i have been the only licensed counselor working in the outpatient program, are multiple. and i am going to rest and take care of myself next week.
then i am going to resign. but i will talk more about that later.
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